How did I beat Psychosis?
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I worked at a corporate banking job as a User Experience Designer for nearly 12 years. It was good at first. Worked my way up until I hit the ceiling. I didn't move on because I liked the people I worked with yadda yadda PSYCHOSIS! I was diagnosed bipolar.
It took me seven years to recover from psychosis but now I'm a fuckin bum on long-term disability. That's the problem with disability leave. If it takes you TOO long to recover from it it turns you into a bum. What's the point of being cured if you haven't the will to work? It's like restoring a classic vehicle but you don't put gas in the tank, or oil in the engine. It's just a show piece. That's what a bum is..."a show piece." I don't want to be a show piece, put gas in my tank. I have a burning passion to help people overcome mental illness, addiction and sexual abuse.
It took me seven years to recover from psychosis but now I'm a fuckin bum on long-term disability. That's the problem with disability leave. If it takes you TOO long to recover from it it turns you into a bum. What's the point of being cured if you haven't the will to work? It's like restoring a classic vehicle but you don't put gas in the tank, or oil in the engine. It's just a show piece. That's what a bum is..."a show piece." I don't want to be a show piece, put gas in my tank. I have a burning passion to help people overcome mental illness, addiction and sexual abuse.
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It took me 7 years creating a mythology to document the underpinnings of bipolarism. I wrote nine books (three of which I self-published) and created this website. I dared to know things about myself I can never unknow. Rejecting the truth makes you sicker, suicidal, a pawn for evil. Rejecting the truth makes you a pawn for evil.
You have to accept you are not perfect. Heh no, no, no. You don't understand. Do you know why you are not perfect? There is putrid, Satanic evil in you. This is why humanity refuses to accept themselves completely. Our most deviant thoughts emanate from the muck of subconscious. If you cherish victimhood you are addicted to shock. Why? Fear of the "sunken-dread" controls our minds (like a pawn) thanks to something that LOVES to remind us we're not perfect (through insecurity); knowing we will reject ourselves.
You have to accept you are not perfect. Heh no, no, no. You don't understand. Do you know why you are not perfect? There is putrid, Satanic evil in you. This is why humanity refuses to accept themselves completely. Our most deviant thoughts emanate from the muck of subconscious. If you cherish victimhood you are addicted to shock. Why? Fear of the "sunken-dread" controls our minds (like a pawn) thanks to something that LOVES to remind us we're not perfect (through insecurity); knowing we will reject ourselves.
It's easier to reject flaws than it is to accept them, because flaws advertise (at a glance) the insecurity destined to sabotage our lives. Rejecting flaws instantly relieves us (from our responsibility) to overcome the plague of pity that encourages victimhood to thrive. People looove being the victim because it puts them in the spotlight.
Acceptance loves insecurity. You have to accept things about yourself that are so fucking putrid...you rob your evil of its leverage. Insecurity has leverage over your autonomy. If you reject the reality of the "sunken-dread," evil will offer you a way out; by accepting your insecurity for a price: pity. Pity is the orgy of hopelessness. Affection is fluid. Affection is fighting to stimulate hope within you (both sinister and divine) to re-establish mantic obedience. Morality interrupts the process (like a party-pooper) to remind you of your responsibility to overcome victimhood.
Compassion for your enemy will help you relate to your evil. God is never out of reach. If you are offended or dismissive of me because I believe in God, know it's because you resent pain. The only thing you've learned (from your pain) is to fish for attention by pitying yourself (publicly). When that doesn't work you'll resent God for your pain. This is in part why God forgives you (when you ask). Victims learn mistakes are something to avoid (with nothing to gain). That is the "sunken-dread" that divides us between hell and common ground. Where's hell? In our heads. Hell is in the head, biblically.
Are thoughts alone illegal? If you say yes, EVERYONE would be guilty.
Are thoughts alone illegal? If you say yes, EVERYONE would be guilty.
Yet, knowing this truth is the key to overcoming your trauma. Granted I'm not what you call "marketable" or "inclusive" but my solution worked. I do not believe my research is worthless. I do believe there is very, very little appetite to introspect (to the degree necessary) to overcome severe trauma.
Cue medication.
Cue medication.
That's my "gas", I give people a strategy to overcome their trauma (if they have the courage to read and listen). Like yanking a thistle by the root. You have got to dig deeper than than the root, otherwise it will snap off when you yank. It'll grow back again and again, deeper and deeper. If you are afraid of the root, you are more likely to do the bidding of its master.
The Deviant Gene is the pinnacle of "your" evil. Every sin below (and above) it is just a cheapened derivative of our most heinous flaw. Ultimately to conquer your deepest trauma, you have to accept the most putrid, Satanic evil you are capable of. That's what I did. I wrote books and published my road into perdition. You can either read my books, or write your own.
Guess what Satan's IQ is?
666
The Deviant Gene is the pinnacle of "your" evil. Every sin below (and above) it is just a cheapened derivative of our most heinous flaw. Ultimately to conquer your deepest trauma, you have to accept the most putrid, Satanic evil you are capable of. That's what I did. I wrote books and published my road into perdition. You can either read my books, or write your own.
Guess what Satan's IQ is?
666
My solution may work for you if...you recover BEFORE you turn into a bum. I want to be your coach and help you recover from mental illness, addiction and sexual abuse inside of 6 months.
The cost for my services write me a testimonial >500 words . I just want your experience documented which I will use to convince others that my methods work.
If you disagree with me...maybe you're better off living with your mental illness, addiction and sexual abuse. Seriously. Everyone does it. I however refuse to submit to the tyranny of victimhood. If you are allergic to shock you are a slave to language. If you value honesty play the video below before you decide anything.
If you disagree with me...maybe you're better off living with your mental illness, addiction and sexual abuse. Seriously. Everyone does it. I however refuse to submit to the tyranny of victimhood. If you are allergic to shock you are a slave to language. If you value honesty play the video below before you decide anything.
